I got a Christmas present that made me so happy it brought tears to my eyes, I’ve wanted one for so long.
As a weight-loss incentive the Husband said he would buy me a Canon 5D Mk II and this Christmas, since I am so close to goal weight (or I was before Christmas), he decided to put it under the tree for me.
This baby is fabulous and terrifying in equal measure – it has pixels and ISOs and features a go go and can produce some ridiculously amazing images. Most of the professional photographers I speak to use it and love it, so I now no longer have any excuse not to produce top quality images.
And therein lies the rub. I no longer have any excuse. Before I could blame crappy images on my not so stellar camera, but now the only reason not to produce amazing photos is because I’m not a good enough photographer.
Because I have to admit to myself that I am a photographer, albeit not yet a very good one. There is nothing, apart from maybe knitting, that gives me so much pleasure and satisfaction – how with the press of a single button, you can tell a story, capture a mood, transmit an emotion, or, as is too often the case with my photos, convey absolutely nothing at all.
So this is the year when I start to take this craft seriously – when I upgrade my kit, study hard, practise tons and put myself out there. I still have no idea where, if anywhere, it all might lead, but I’m going to bust my ass getting there.
To kick things off I’m going to finish up my Christmas photo book, have signed up for an online Food Photography course with Lara Ferroni, am committing to posting at least a photo a day to Instagram (I’m @mirrormirrorxx come and join me), will read the stack of photography books next to my bed, will start using Flickr again and build a photography portfolio website. One day I want to be worthy of my new toy, in a way that I’m just not at present.
This year I’m only making positive resolutions, no more thoughts of ‘giving up’ or ‘losing’, or ‘stopping’. Instead I want to do things that help me grow and develop, take me to new places and bring me new opportunities. I want to throw a metaphorical stone into a metaphorical lake and watch where the metaphorical ripples end up, and am super intrigued and excited to find out where this photo journey might take me.
Are you starting any new journeys this year? Where do you hope to get to? What do you want to learn or achieve? Spill the beans and we can hold each others’ hand along the way.
I was just about to press ‘publish’ when this post by Tara Austen Weaver popped up on Facebook. Of course she talks about following through on all things intriguing so much more eloquently than I can. I think she must have been reading my mind.